I’ve been telling people about the Enneagram quiz and have been promising people to pass the link along, so here it is.
Why take the test? The test is cool because it gives you an opportunity to look at yourself from the perspective of a psychologist. Like a mind that follows a pattern of behaviors.
I think that having this perspective of yourself is important so that you can understand why you tend to think the way that you do. Why should you care? Well, I don’t know, but I care because it gives me a good reference point about when to know if I’m centered or not centered.
So onto my type, I fall into the four category–the tragic romantic. Yes, yes, I know, tragic. And there is a super good description of the types available on this website:
Scroll down on your type and read the section:
Type Four—Levels of Development
This section is broken up into 9 levels that describe how off-center you are from a healthy balance.
Nothing is dual, nothing is black and white. It’s a wave that umbrellas both black and white.
At the most fundamental levels of matter we are not Here or There. We are a wave that umbrellas here and there.
This is why smart people are building quantum computers right now to solve increasingly unsolvable problems about the most basic, tiniest, un-understandably small bits and pieces—that define us and our bodies. These problems can’t simply be understood by a single True or False statement.
If the most fundamental bits and pieces that make up our existence do not conform to single black and white statements, then it is a very logical and straightforward conclusion that neither do our ideas.
Ignorance, is simply the tail end of knowledge, the absence of knowledge. An opposite of wisdom. And a part of existence that we must continue to patiently set our kindness towards in an effort to educate.
When I reflect on this post now. I think of how trapped I felt. Even in the beauty of this photo, I felt a terrible unease. Although I was inspired to write this because of my perceived lack of happiness, it was done from a place reminiscence. Deep down I wanted to be back in this place of beauty. But what I didn’t realize, was that what was calling me for change was not my environment around me. Instead, it was the internal misalignment with myself.
When you feel this urge to leave and flee. Remember that what you are seeking could be something else entirely. But follow your heart, trust your intuition, and know that it is leading you in the right direction.
This is a journal note I wrote to myself after returning to work after a month long climbing trip to Yosemite in June 2015. I couldn't quite get myself motivated to work after that trip. So I spent a lot of my work days journaling and trying to figure out my next move.
When I got a taste for freedom, for adventure, for liberty. Total control over my own life and my own time; I found that I couldn’t ever let it go. I can not be content with submitting myself to an unfulfilling task. I must be free.
Every moment is precious. Every thought is sacred. The idea of being bound to safety, to security, and groundedness becomes absolutely terrifying. Fear is the predominant emotion. Anxiety is the response.
There is a world out there. A world full of life and adventure, how long can I give in to fear?